YOU AND ME / ROUND AND ROUND WE GO / GET WARM

Buddha’s wearing my rosary beads

Morrison’s on my closet door

My nostril has another ring it in it;
bigger than before

I been drinking lots of water

And staying up late;

You haven’t been on my mind much

I need a clean slate

I write down so many notes

I can’t seem to remember it all;

everything in my head

what is true and what is false?

you make my heart sing

and it’s my favorite song;

I don’t know all the words

But won’t you sing along?

I can’t stop thinking about

Hot air balloons on brisk mornings

Or about how pretty your voice is;
I’m sorry for that last line
I promise I’m not that boring

i aint scared of the dark

i aint scared of no sharks

i’m scared that there’ll be a spark

when you and I take a walk in the park

or maybe go look at some art

should I step off or embark?

Listen, listen, listen, you long haired beauty

I got some things I’d like to say to you:

* ** ****** ** ******* ** **** **** *******, * **** ***** *** ** *********

|forget everything I said ~ celebrate life|

💌

deep and firm roots (one and a half years of growth)

we talked on the phone for forty five minutes and then the phone call ended without any explanation

You: “hello i’m sorry my phone died and then took a year to turn back on”

Me: “I’m just glad you’re still alive”

You: “sure am”

You: “i’m glad you’re still kicking”

Me: “with all my might”

Happy Appy & The Infinite Thunder

Turns out I don’t have a whole lot to say

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A girl made me a playlist

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I baby sat my cousins tonight

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I forgot that communicating with babies is so difficult

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I’ve worked 47 hours this week

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My lock screen is Jean-Michel Basquiat 

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My home screen is a wizard on the metro

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(If I am to ever read this out loud, I will skip this part)

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thinking of you

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Praying harder than a mantis

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Would this be considered mixed media if I SPOKE IN ALL CAPS

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another day

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another dime

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I sure hope Victor is doing well

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Your smile lights up the world

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how many watts?

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I’m the man who knows too much

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I’m the man who doesn’t know enough

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My grandma used to have this toy, it was of a California Raisin

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https://youtu.be/pM2OK_JaJ9I

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I don’t give an eff you cee kay about Stranger Things

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this was not a creative project

7/7

grand

Apples are the healthier alternative / so was loving someone else

I lay in my bed alone / I’m worried about my health

I’m trying to get cozy / get into a good book

I just never have time / to get so hooked

I saw my aunt last night / The first time in a while

Her and my uncle got a divorce / But she still had the same hair style

When you see me smile / you can’t help but smile too

History says I am a pacifist / I can be anything I want

6/7

thinkin’ of you (revisited)

When the sky is pink

and orange

and blue

and the mountains are purple

and sprinkled with white snow

“Are we getting pulled over?”

I don’t want to think

of my ex girlfriend

Thích Quảng Đức;

I want to live on a boat

I want to travel

zac,

post this before your eyes shut

5/7

  

black and white photograph of a TV surrounded by a yellow border / Testify by Rage Against the Machine stuck in my head

The moon is going to shower us with it’s moon beams

I’m so clean, I’m so clean, I’m so clean

The sun will kiss us with its bright rays

I’m so clean, I’m so clean, I’m so clean

Taking a trip around the solar system

I’m so alone, I’m so alone, I’m so alone

It doesn’t matter what I’m doing

As long as you’re not there





4/7

Heart Shaped Rocks/Give ‘Em To Me

Cutting out pictures at the train station

The train was 25 minutes late

I kept cutting out pictures. 

People were complaining that the train was so late

I understand their frustration but

People should be a bit more patient. 

I was late to class

It was my math class

We are talking about exponential growth and

Exponential decay. 

Don’t worry, I won’t talk about it anymore. 

3/7

“staircase” 2017

I haven’t made anything in a long time

It may be because I’m not making it for anyone/I know I’m the only one who will see it/

What’s with all these people not signaling/you’re not King Arthur

I still stop in at the jewelers, to see how they’re doing

I think about knocking on your apartment door, or throwing rocks at your window

I notice more white cars, and always look for you driving

(I keep seeing things that aren’t really there: mountains / cars)

My eyes are burning;

Writing with the ink from my heart;

I’m just another boy with brown hair;

No time to fool around;

Sometimes I think we are meant for each other;

Other times I think of how life was in the 1950’s:

I watched a documentary about a lady called Dorothea Lange, she took a lot of black and white photographs. Documentary style photography is quite possibly my favorite form of photography. You don’t ask the subject to smile, they may not even know the photo’s been taken. You just take it as you see it happen, you just kinda know when you see a potential good shot. She took a lot of photos of people in the Midwest who suffered from the Great Depression- came over to California. The photos conveyed a very strong message to the public because no one knew who they were, but you could see their sadness. 

Who were all of these faces?

What’re their stories?

It really made me think about how different things were back then. Almost seems like an eternity ago, doesn’t seem real. A lot of things that mattered back then possibly wouldn’t matter now (and a lot of things that matter now certainly wouldn’t matter back then).

SHRI MATA VAISHNO DEVI SHRINE BOARD 2008

2/7

Settin' the Woods on Fire

sunday, november 19, 2017 9:40 pm

i am very busy with school and work

i need more time to be creative

"may I ask who I'm speaking with?"

I sometimes sit alone at work; it's just because I usually work in the mornings so I sit with the morning people.  But sometimes I work in the afternoon/evenings and the morning people all leave so I'm just alone.  It's not that bad, really

I've been wearing gloves to stop biting my nails but I just take them off sometimes and bite my nails still.  I hate when it's cold outside so you wear a lot of layers or a big coat but when you arrive at school, work, or wherever you're going and they are blasting the heat because it is cold outside.  Then you're just way hot and you take your jacket or whatever off and then it's just really hot

Not quite the center of my skull, but just behind it, is a small indent.  I'm not sure what it's from, it doesn't hurt, just worried it's something bad.

I look at a computer screen all day and I can't imagine that's great for my eyes.

I added Jim Carrey to my list of favorite actors because I watched a movie called, "Jim & Andy: The Great Beyond — Featuring a Very Special, Contractually Obligated Mention of Tony Clifton." and it was so wonderful.  I wasn't familiar with Andy Kaufman before this movie, so I didn't know how to exactly compare it to, other than clips of Andy throughout the film.  But he takes on Andy's persona so well, it blows my mind.  He remains in character all of the time, and talks about when he was Andy, he didn't have a care in the world.  He felt so free and happy and that's because Andy was.  It had Andy's parents, ex-girlfriend, manager, and close friend's featured in the film and they said it was spot on and it really was like Andy.  Whoever the character he played was (whether it was spot on Andy or just some other character Jim made up), it was brilliant.

I'm going to try to write everyday this week

1/7

twenty reasons why i'm pissed off

1. I am pissed off because my bus driver stopped at a stop with no people so he could read his book- making me miss the train
2. I am pissed off because I have to commute to Salt Lake every day and it’s really inconvenient 
3. I am pissed off because I wanted to be an ultrasound technician and so I took a radiology class but it’s not really what I was expecting and I don’t mean to “put myself down” but I’m really not that smart and it's a lot to remember
4. I’m a little bit pissed off because three other people got off on the same stop that I did
5. I’m pissed off because my credit card balance was a lot more than I expected it to be
6. I’m pissed off because my hair is not long enough to push back, but it’s just long enough that I can’t comb it to the side
7. I’m pissed off because my Tyler, the Creator cassette tape still hasn’t come (I ordered it in July)
8. I’m pissed off because I don’t have anyone to talk to about my day
9. I’m pissed off because people litter
10. I’m pissed off because it’s cold
11. I’m pissed off because I know it’s only going to get colder
12. I’m pissed off because I don’t know what the initials C.S. stand for in C.S. Lewis’ name
13. I’m pissed off because I took out my nose ring
14. I’m pissed off because I have two tattoos of birds and they used to not mean anything to me
15. I’m pissed off because I hate odd numbers, and I have an odd amount of letters in my name
16. I’m pissed off because I know I’ll never make as much money as I want
17. I’m pissed off because I’ve been doing so much driving lately
18. I’m pissed off because I have two bank accounts with two banking institutions
19. I’m pissed off because I didn’t charge my phone enough before I left the house
20. I’m pissed off because the lady at the dollar store didn't say anything to me other than my total

check back at another time for something that matters

Thought I’d be happi

er without you in my

life; I never felt conne

cted with the eighties;

I hate doing homewor

k; I hate falling asleep

; riding the train is a b

ore; you remodeled th

e house; but didn’t inv

ite anyone over to see

; my eyes have been d

ry; I drive to work (and

back) and to the train

station (and back); ta

ke my dogs on walks a

round my neighborhoo

d; they never seem to

fet tired of the same ro

ute; I am not looking fo

rward to this coming w

inter; I’m wearing glove

s so I will stop biting m

y nails; ask too many q

uestions at work; I app

reciate comments mor

e than likes; (usually);

the final information is;

,thanksgiving haiku,

One time in a dream, one of my past teachers told me he enjoyed my poetry so much, he wanted me to read at his family’s thanksgiving feast. I penned a quick 5 7 5 stanza and read it off to the table, “thanksgiving: family / thanksgiving: pass the turkey / thanksgiving: much love”. I’ll never know what they thought of my haiku, or what they were each thankful for. 



One time in a dream one of my past teachers told me he enjoyed my poetry so much he wanted me to read at his family’s thanksgiving feast I penned a quick 5 7 5 stanza and read it off to the table “thanksgiving: family thanksgiving: pass the turkey thanksgiving: much love” I’ll never know what they thought of my haiku or what they were each thankful for

Baby, we look like a million dollars!

You were reading from an old book

And waiting for the (southbound) train

Green backpack

Septum piercing

Big hoop earrings

Black dress

Long blond hair,

(you keep looking at me)

(I keep looking at you)

Sweeet, sweet jazz, playing behind me

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I’ve been having dreams of being the taxi driver / 

Summiting mountains /

Sitting cross legged /

With you //

Tattoos on my legs /

Smoke in my lungs /

You on my mind //

They all smoke cigarettes cause they hate themselves /

We all run yellow lights /

And I eat pb&js for every lunch //

jupiter (i miss you)

We all live our own lives /
I wrote a poem for you /
I wrote a song for you /
You don't love me // 

I don't mean to sound like a love sick teenager /
That’s all anyone is really /
I can't say comfortable correctly //

I got rid of my social media /
Too much bs /
Everyone is a sheep /
















I'm just a shepherd /
I'm a pioneer /
I'm a resident /
I'm just wondering /
If you still think of me //

A girl once told me that I don't know a thing about love //

(maybe she was right)

zac (king)

oliver (king)

unrelated 

dogs (kings)

unrelated

Please Don't Leave Me
Hit Em High
Isle of Dogs
Just A Little

(some of) my favorite movies

not really in any order:

(kind of inspired by my friend emmeline's list)

*Charlie Countryman

Shia Labeouf is one of my favorite actors, ever.  I think that he started off with the classic Even Stevens, then went on to star in Holes, Surf's Up, Disturbia, Transformers, Indian Jones, and American Honey (to name a few).  He's even in a Sigur Rós music video (Fjogur Piano).  I think that the Charlie Countryman's character is so beautiful (physically and, spiritually?), I just relate to him on some other level- I can't explain it.  And the soundtrack is fantastic.

*Moonrise Kingdom

Sam Shakusky is another character that I relate to on a spiritual level (don't mean to sound basic, it's true though).  Wes Anderson is such a fantastic director, he's so aesthetically pleasing- the colors, the quirky characters, the phrases, you can't go wrong with it.

*Fantastic Mr. Fox

Fantastic Mr. Fox was one of my favorite books when I was younger- I've always been fascinated with foxes.  The fact that Wes Anderson directed one of my favorite books about my favorite animals- I couldn't believe it.  (and he's making a movie about dogs.  I'm unbelievably excited)

*Big Fish

Ewan McGregor is one of my other favorite actors.  He's just such a handsome fellow, with a calm voice.  Big Fish is 1/2 movies I've ever cried in.  It wasn't even sad tears, they were happy.  The ending of the movie is so beautiful.

*Pulp Fiction

Cult Classic alert!!!!!!  I quote Pulp Fiction at least once a day.  It is such a fantastic movie- I love how all the characters are alive at the same time; it shows how chaotic/different everyone's life is.  And they're (all) connected one way or another.  

*Short Term 12

This is the first movie that I saw with Brie Larson in it.  I instantly fell in love (lol).  It's a sensitive story, and her character is just so beautiful.

*Submarine

There are just some characters I relate to on some level- Oliver Tate is one of them.  He's just an awkward guy who worries about things that don't matter too much and if that's not me then I don't know who is

*What's Eating Gilbert Grape

(young) Leonardo DiCaprio and Johnny Depp in the same movie?  I must be dreaming.  Johnny Depp is a straight 10 in this movie.  His hair, style, how he cares for his mama, how he treats people, especially Arnie.  I may or may not be able to do a spot on impression of Arnie; please don't ask me about it.

*Amelie

Amelie is 2/2 movies I've cried it.  It's all in French, and thankfully they added English subtitles (or maybe every time I've seen it I've just had them on).  I think it's such a beautiful film- it's shot all over Paris and I wish I could speak/understand French; I suppose it'd mean more/something different then.  Raymond Dufayel (old/glass man) records himself speaking to Amelie (can't find it with subtitles- watch the movie), and I cried (just a bit) because I just loved the scene so much (and was even inspired to sample it, lol)

*Good Will Hunting

Robin Williams, Matt Damon, and Ben Affleck = The Holy Trinity.  They were way young when they wrote the script for the movie- early 20s?  Those boys are wicked smart.  

*Moonlight

Moonlight has some wonderful cinematography.  It shows 3 different life chapters of Chiron's life.  I'd never heard of it and it won the award for best picture, and definitely deserved it.

*Edward Scissorhands

Johnny Depp and Winona Ryder are too good in this film.  You can't help but to feel bad for the inventor that dies- but scissorhands are kind of badass.  Winona Ryder is such a sweetheart, too.

*Kill Bill

Uma Thurman is too badass for this world.  The Deadly Viper Assassination Squad is also badass, but not quite a revenge seeking bride.

*Fight Club

1st rule of Fight Club is you do not talk about fight club

*500 Days of Summer

The classic (tragic) love story of Summer and Tom.  I relate to it too much, unfortunately.  Joseph Gordon-Levitt and Zooey Dechanel are a great couple, I wish they were together in real life.   :(

*Donnie Darko

One of the first mind bending movies that made me rethink things.  I think Donnie's is such a funny/weird person, I just love him.  Genius movie.

*The Shining

Jack Nicholson plays Jack Torrence too well.  The movie is viewed as slow by some people- but that's what makes it so good.  You seem him slowly become crazy; all too real.  I'd like to stay at the Overlook Hotel once in my life.

*O Brother, Where Art Thou?

I love this movie, and have since I was a kid.  I remember watching and laughing so hard with my dad and brothers.  There are so many genius lines, and if you're familiar with the Odyssey, it's interesting to catch the references.

*10 Things I Hate About You

Another wonderful adaption of an older script (The Taming of the Shrew).  Heath Ledger is such a great actor- and he's drop dead gorgeous lmao.  The part when he sings Can't Take My Eyes Off You- you can't tell me that's not cute.

*Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

I relate to Joel and Clementine too well.  If Lacuna, Inc was real- I don't think I'd use their services.  Sure, some things/people in life would be nice to forget, but at the same time I wouldn't want to forget them.  Elijah Wood in this film was a bit too weird, I can't lie.

*La La Land

There's a lot of sappy love stories on this list but I don't care because love rocks (and sucks, lol).  La La Land is wicked cute and the songs are catchy and Ryan Gosling and Emma Stone make a good couple.  

*Coonskin

This movie is about three brothers (Fox, Bear, Rabbit) who are a couple of badasses.  They live in Harlem and it's such a unique style of movie- almost avant garde.  Had to sample this movie too

*Ferris Bueller's Day Off

I want to be Ferris Bueller when I grow up.  He's a handsome, creative, sly, quick thinking, slacker.  I love it.  He's put into some situations that some people wouldn't know how to react and he does so quickly.  He's a hero in my books.

here are some of my other favorite movies that I don't care too much to write about (ordered by length of the title):

Pi

Boy

Lion
Kids
Blow

Comet

Hackers

Gummo
Basquiat

Beginners
Space Jam

Taxi Driver

The Lobster

Trainspotting

Jackie Brown

Spirited Away

Remember Me

Everybody Street

Django Unchained

The Breakfast Club
Inglorious Basterds
My Neighbor Totoro

Silence of the Lambs
Catch Me If You Can

Slum Dog Millionaire
The Royal Tenenbaums

No Country For Old Men

Exit Through the Gift Shop

The Shawshank Redemption

Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas

Me and Earl and the Dying Girl 
The Stanford Prison Experiment

Seeking a Friend for the End of the World

the most pathetic poem i’ve ever written

I still find myself thinking about you

Surpassing All Other Kings

https://soundcloud.com/victorbluebird/sets/surpassing-all-other-kings

Surpassing All Other Kings - Victor Bluebird

Some Kind Of Intro - Victor Bluebird

Gambling Rats (featuring Kyle Nelson) - Victor Bluebird

Be Free - Marko Bungle

Someone To Watch Over Me (cover) - Hannah Ford

Amazing Grace (cover) - Communist Children's Choir

Hands Raised / For Zac - Irlanda Trujillo

Please Don't Touch With Your Hands (featuring Marko Bungle) - Victor Bluebird

Going Nowhere - Victor Bluebird

When You Were Young (cover) - Communist Children's Choir

a conversation with bailey about gelato (featuring Bailey Bezzant) - Victor Bluebird

Lucky - lj

Untitled - Victor Bluebird

Some Kind Of Outro - Victor Bluebird

Surpassing All Other Kings - Victor Bluebird